#np Four Pink Walls- Alessia Cara
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I have to unlearn everything
I have to relearn everything I am about to unlearn.
I am a millennial-with the same 3000 problems every millennial has because of some type of conditioning. No I am not trying to join the #StayWoke crew. I don’t have anything against them but I am not sure the new information we receive from these lovely people changes much. In my opinion we are more into hoarding information just so we have some intelligent things to say- which is good for conversation-but I am yet to meet someone so woke they reek of Awakening. I’ve only met one person. Everyone else is just good at spewing a great plot but inconsistent conspiracy.
I want to unlearn the keys to happiness. Consumerism that cancer that makes us think the more we have the better for us. Which automatically makes things like “retail therapy” a thing. Without excess, we are agitated, we are mad, we are highly irritable. Get over yourself already- the world needs a lot more than your 100 pairs of shoes. Half of the reality shows and whatever pop culture has to avail right now has 3/4 of the scenes on some upmarket boulevard with expensive stores or people shopping till they drop. So shopping becomes a thing. So we now have Black Friday, and the sales happen and we don’t want to miss that. We start to hoard-again just like we have done with that information about Planned Parenthood. This is why teaching people about gratitude is still one of the hardest things. I’ll tell you one thing. It’s very easy to be grateful now and complain the next second. The urge to have something else instead always tags along.
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I want to learn to still my mind. to remain extremely calm and aware of my surroundings, my feelings, my emotions and my frequency. we are in an age where multi tasking is key. so you have coffee while you speak to your best friend while texting your boyfriend while thinking about what you will wear tomorrow. and somehow we keep reading all these quotes about living in the moment but fail to do just that. Please do not meet up with someone and only give them 3% of your attention. Well at least do not invite me to see just how busy you are with your little immaterial schedule.
I want to learn the art of making friends. Yes, I love the ones I have now but it doesn’t hurt to make more friends because there is so much to learn and know and speak about. I don’t want to have a “Squad” like I am 5. I want to know as many people as I can and not just by their names. I want to know whatever I am allowed to know about them. I do not care if they do not find Pete Davidson funny, we might disagree on a whole lot of things but I want to still be their friend. this is not me being the naïve 5 year old-I know there’s a whole lot of cool people out there who share the same sentiments- and if they are not as nice as I hoped for then…tough luck-it was an experience.
I want to learn about my God differently without writing off the next person with too many questions to ask about my recitation of various chaplets. I want to know everything about those chaplets. I want to be able to appreciate religion in more ways than I can possibly imagine without undermining any one else’s belief system. I want to learn about other systems too so I can genuinely accommodate the next person.
I want to flush from my system the insatiable appetite for an audience for whatever it is that goes on in my life. I have grown up in an internet age where the line between the real word and the virtual world is in need of a new coat of paint. I have seen what vanity can do. I can see why John Milton in The Devil’s Advocate admitted that Vanity is favourite sin. There’s nothing like it. Pure unadulterated vanity will always make you lose sight of what’s really important. I want none of that-and for whatever might remain in the system to remain benign.
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This is not supposed to be some puzzle. You know…everyone can work on it for a couple of days till it looks like the picture on the box. A couple of months, a year-whatever, they all arrive at the same goddamn lighthouse.
There’s a lot more and it will probably come to me late when I am not in the mood to write-but whatever it is I am ready to put in the work to learn differently.